we never really cared about jesus but
christmas was an excuse to deck the house
in tinsels, hot chocolate & an absurd number
of fairy lights. put on a favorite movie,
gorge upon heart-shaped chocolates,
& hug the people you love. i love you.
i hope i said that enough when you were
around. jump then fall (taylor’s version)
comes on the radio & i’m smothered
in blankets & dad is volleying snowballs
at my face. i hear laughter echoing in
a car moving through a snowy afternoon
to a home i cannot see. my dreams haunt
me with memories i can never touch
again. snow drips down my cheek
& my ribs ache from giggling stop
tickling me! in every dream, i walk across
the bridge & hope to see you
on the other side. jump
then fall has always been my christmas
song because nothing hurts in my favorite
city & i keep tumbling down the hill. it’s
okay. i barely have a scrape. we’ll walk
to the chinese restaurant down the road
& i’ll forget all about it because these paths
remember you. i’ll be okay
as long as i ca n remember yo
